Gone with the wind!

I had a feeling... my guts were telling me he'd stand me up with that coffee. Oh, well, guess i'm heading home. No, wait, he texted to go over to his place. Like hell! Or not? I want to see him but it'll probably be the last time since i will not be able to control myself. Ok, i'm going!
He opens the door and his smile fills me up. I've never thought a smile could make me feel so protected. He looks so good with his sleeveless superman shirt and ha! There's the batman logo on the back! I'm such a nerd, this is really turning me on.
He kisses me and i know i wont be able to resist. At least i got to know what's what. So hard to word my thoughts in english. I mumble a bit but he gets my point. Not ready for a relationship? That's funny, i've never been ready for one in my life. Then we are going to take it slow and have fun? Oh, we'll have fun right now for sure. I need it anyway, release this stress that's eating me inside.
I don't want to fall in love for the first time with you! I might be able to control it. After this you will make it easier for me to do it. Keep you away from my heart cause you're a guy, you will do something stupid once the edge of having me is gone. I know it as a fact!
Well, he said he was nice, at least a part of him is. I wish we'd become friends, oh, how i need a friend.
The thrill is gone! The butterflies are dead!
You'll never know the future like i did. You'll never get to feel what i could have felt for you. I've been keeping to myself my whole life waiting for a chance like this. I've never loved someone because i only want to love once. It could have been you, my blue eyes dream!
I've done peace with this. You'll never see me cause you don't want to see anything right now. Still i know hope and i know i cant really crush it in a second.
 Tomorrow is another day!